Okay, so I guess this is a great place to start. I plan on doing a video explaining my goals in detail later, but this will be a typed-up outline of them.
I am about to embark on what is likely to be the most challenging thing I’ve ever done in all my life. I plan to do a complete overhaul of almost every aspect of my current situation. I am doing a physical, emotional, mental, spiritual and financial makeover.
For the record, my mother warned me against doing this. Her exact words were “I think you might turn a lot of people off” and she may very likely be correct. But regardless to those of you who may find the object of my mission repulsive, I am hoping (fingers crossed) that there is a section of you who find what I’m about to do inspiring. Plus if me being me is a turnoff, sobeit.
See, life is like that all the time. I mean anything you do someone will probably think it’s shit. That’s just the way the ball bounces. But, if you limit your experience or contribution to only doing the things that will appease others, man… your inner world will definitely be wrecked and dysfunctional.
So here it is. I am setting some one-year goals for myself. Firstly, for an entire year, I’m going to practice celibacy. I am in disbelief at myself for wanting to do this, and almost afraid to commit to it, but it is so necessary. I’m under the belief that energy — like cache — needs to be cleared in order for the system to run smoothly.
If you feel like Tyrese crying on camera was some bitch-ass-shit, you probably want to stay clear of the content I will be publishing!
For this period I am also going to refrain from beginning any romantic relationships. I haven’t really opened up about my mental health to the people I’m closest to, but 2017 has been kicking my ass and a lot of it has to deal with bad habits I’ve picked up over the years and an unhealthy relationship I was in (I take full responsibility for it).
Here’s a spoiler: If you feel like Tyrese crying on camera was some bitch-ass-shit, you probably want to stay clear of the content I will be publishing! I don’t know if I’ll ever get to a place where I would do something like that, but anything is possible. I’m not holding anything back—not one lick.
Also, if you are a friend and you are reading this, thank you. I appreciate you. What I do not appreciate is every time I tell one of you my plans of being celibate you immediately tell me why I should at least get some action here and there. No. That’s not where I’m at right now. This is a serious time for me. I don’t want to leave this earth without making life my bitch (at least once!).
Another goal of mine is to build better relationships with my family. I am a true introvert (hermit, recluse, homebody, etc.) so I usually spend loads of time alone. On top of that, I am very sensitive to other people’s energies. This is challenging because you can’t pick who your family is, so we all have a collective of people, some healthy and some unhealthy, some positive and some negative, that we are expected to be there for and love unconditionally. It’s really, really challenging to deal with low vibrations for me (I’m just being honest).
Here is my mantra for this 365 day period:
Through Consistency, Hard Work, and Focused Goals universal Prosperity is available to me, and I am worth it.
And just for summary’s sake, here’s my goals list:
- Do 365 days of celibacy
- No romantic involvement over that period
- Be more consistent in my art development/output